On Tuesday, Oct. 2nd, I took the first half of a two part test required for a promotion at work. I do not really want to promote, but I need the money. I'm going through a lot of changes in my view of myself.
I'm feeling lonely. I don't know why. I'm usually content being alone. I have been feeling hollow lately. Unsettled. I've been in free-fall most of my life, so hollow and unsettled seems grounded, down to earth.
I feel like a balloon that has lost most of its helium and is bobbing just above the ground. Any bit of breeze sends me floating off somewhere else. Most of my life I've been whipped around by the wind or trapped in a blind alley.
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